Well the end of the day came, I did my last official bus duty, I had 3 parent/teacher meetings, it was a pretty normal day except for being my last day as the classroom teacher. I still have 2 days to go, and when I wake up Monday morning, I won't have to be in the school cafeteria, yelling be quiet and listen to the announcements! I'll be here at home, wondering how the next few months will go, will they be good ones, bad ones, will my dad's Doctors finally figure out what is wrong and he'll be ok, will I be doing consulting, working part time, existing, still living here? Where will my son be and what will he be doing, will he be ok?
I will have all kinds of questions, I will doubt myself and my decision, I will wonder if I really screwed or if I made the best decision of my life. There are no clear, pat, for sure, answers to any of them right now, but the answers will come, whether I want them to or not. But I know I have to trust in myself and my family, and believe that I did the right thing for all of us. My health, my family's health, my sanity, they all need to come first, and it's not up to anyone to judge me for choices and decisions I've had to make. People don't know the first thing about what goes on in my mind; or the reasons behind my choices, but they do have respect the fact that are MY choices and MY decisions.
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